So I have hit the First Dollar Milestone. Heh. :3

I must apologize for being inactive recently and not responding the a number of comments. Things are just as uneventful as newly placed drywall. So let's spice things up, let's smother a variety of colors on this blank space to make even a kaleidoscope look boring.

First things first, I'll address the well-being and I do have to admit that I need to get it together. Resume controlling my eating habits (especially the snacks), take my vitamins, sleep an ample amount of time, that sort of thing. So I started today with making my own brunch, getting a bit of exercise from soccer, and eating a hearty dinner.

I have too much time to think. So much that it's probably bordering unhealthy. Such is probably the case.
Other people rarely bother me to the point where I'm concerned. But leave me alone to my own thoughts for so long and it's more likely that I kind of destroy myself. Not physically of course, mostly emotionally. So eh, I need to switch out a few things and take a modified approach. Overtake this slow, enormous truck in my lane.

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One of my dreams last night formed a jealous anger in me which is pretty rare. And I think (I'm not sure if this was reality or part of the dream) as soon as I woke up I angrily punched a pillow and went back to sleep. Strange night.

Today, I was helping my mum move a mirror into the bathroom and we dropped it breaking it in half. And to make matters worse, I'm a superstitious person. Luckily, our neighborhood somehow had a spare 2 x 4 meter mirror. Luckily, heh.

A friend of mine is trying to manipulate lucid dreams and sent me the wiki article to read and it really is interesting and they refer to it somewhat like a technique or ability. Truly interesting, one of the methods is to try to focus your mind onto one idea in order to dream about it. And I've done that involuntarily, I've woken up and thought to myself, "I hope I come back to that dream." But I don't want to control my dreams all the time either, I like to let them wander even if they make me jealous like last night.

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I rolled off the bed, waking from my nap, and caught sight of the clock. 5:21 PM. I cussed here, I was supposed to be at the soccer complex by 5:30 PM to help train the little U10 and under kids. It's by volunteer-basis and it's enjoyable.. I wouldn't say work really. I can see why coaches exist.

So I pull on some athletic wear, and hop into the car with a half tank of gas, empty stomach, and overflowing head. And I'm late, I know it. I'm used to living by the clock so to speak. My thoughts are still racing.

I think.. with all the rushing around I do, I would really like if I didn't have to do this. Have someone would ask. Would you stay awhile longer?

"Yeah, I'd like that."

I'd really love to just rest and not worry about anything. Not work, not the future. Even if it's for a few moments, but I'd enjoy it.

I have quite a bit of schoolwork to finish tonight so I suppose that'll be it. Good night.

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After I dropped my dad off at the shop to pick up the car today I went to the college track course. And I'm not too sure if I'm suppose to be there when I'm not enrolled at the school. But.. eh I probably could pass for a freshman or sophomore in college. I ran a few laps around the track to warm up and then stretched to loosen up.

I brought along with me a stop-watch that snugly fastened around my wrist.

I pressed the Start button. "One," I muttered under my breath, "Two," "Three," and as the "e" left my lips my body contorted as my legs pushed off the rubber footing. I sprinted down the lane and pressed the same button on the watch as I crossed the 100 meter mark. Decelerating to a walk, I subtracted 3 seconds from the time and wrote it down quickly during the 30 second break on the small notepad I had brought.

When the half minute was over, I stepped up to the line, pressed the button, counted, and sprinted. After the fifth sprint I increased the break time to 1 minute. After the fifteenth, a minute and a half.

Rinse and repeat, I thought. Almost mechanic.

After the twentieth sprint the cycle was discontinued and I lightly jogged four laps around the track to cool down before stretching once again. Leaving the track, I placed a few drops of the electrolyte-solution into my water bottle. It's just concentrated electrolytes to help replenish what you lose from sweating. Alone, it tastes like sea water; with bottled water, well.. imagine squeeze a lemon slice into your water at a restaurant. It's more effective than Gatorade but it just doesn't taste good at all.

Mmmh, I'm not in the best of moods.

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For the last few days I've been under the weather with a few flu symptoms but I have to say that now the worst thing is probably just a stuffy nose. Well, one nostril is clogged so that.. I can only breathe through one nasal passage and that bothers me quite a bit really. But other than that, I'm seemingly good to go. :J Moving on!

School doesn't seem at all like it used to be, perhaps it's because I'm a senior that things are rather surreal. Things have changed since last year, but.. since the start of school things have simply been the same regardless of what happens. This is possibly what makes it seem surreal; it's almost dreamlike because despite whatever happens the previous day, the next day seems unaffected by the occurrences. (School work and projects excluded of course)

I've been working on this sketch/drawing for my Psychology class in order to explain certain elements of evolution. I'll admit, I'm overdoing it. It's not even a grade but.. as of this year grades are no longer the incentive for me to do my schoolwork. With this having been said, I haven't finished the sketch yet and.. honestly, it won't be finished tonight. I suppose my teacher will have to wait. Heh.

I'd also like to add.. I'm in no rush to graduate. :J

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